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Brief discussions about eating disorder topics called "This Month's Musings" are updated regularly on the Freedom From Eating Disorders home page. Also included is "This Week's Point to Ponder" which is a quote, verse or thought-provoking question related to the eating disorder factors brought to light in the musings. You may want to use these snippets about eating disorder factors as journaling exercises or to start discussions with your counselor, support group or on your support message board.
Browse the musings below or go directly to eating disorder articles through the links on the left side of this page.
I also have articles on some of these same topics at Associated Content. Also, at Associated Content, you will find my articles on the signs and symptoms as well as some encouragement for those with Anorexia, Bulimia, EDNOS and Binge Eating Disorder.
I have included some of the topics represented here in my book, Journey to Freedom from Eating Disorders.
Which Step Will You Take? - February, 2011
(To read more about this topic, I have also publislhed an article on this topic at Associated Content - Taking the Steps.)
We take steps every day and we can learn something from each one.
Sometimes we step sideways. Though we may not be willing to go forward, we refuse to step backwards and we reach for something else. However, it doesn’t satisfy us.
There are moments when we take a step backwards. It may seem comfortable there initially, but we know we won’t find freedom there. Yet how do we step away?
Though we can’t be pried away from what holds us so tightly, we find that the small steps forward gently lead in us the direction we want to go.
We’ve taken steps in various directions. We’ve learned where they lead. The choice is up to us.
By Laurie Glass
Points to Ponder
Take time to celebrate your steps forward. It doesn’t matter what they are, how many there are or what size they are. You deserve to celebrate and feel great about each one.
What positive thing can you tell yourself to help you get back on track after taking a step backwards?
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” II Cor. 12:9,10
What step forward will you try to take this week?
Emotions - January, 2011
(To read more about this topic, read my article entitled Emotions and Eating Disorders. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Expressing Emotions.)
Eating disorder sufferers are often a bundle of unexpressed emotions. Whether they fear their feelings, are confused by them or are unsure how to express them in healthy ways, it’s as if they’re held hostage by their emotions. Eating disorder behaviors provide a distraction from these deep, painful and sometimes perplexing emotions. However, the behaviors only add to the emotions, particularly guilt and shame, which bring them down. Trapped emotions don’t simply go away, but they can fester, have a negative effect on relationships, cause depression, and can even impair one’s judgment in some cases.
I was filled with so much sadness and anger I was afraid that if I began to let out my feelings, I would lose complete control of them. However, I couldn’t break free of their effect on me until I released them. It took countless, tear-filled hours of talking, praying, and journaling to do it, but it was necessary and well worth every minute. It’s as if letting out my feelings put my inner pain in God’s healing hands. I know I wouldn’t be free of anorexia today had I not been willing to let myself feel and let go of those emotions.
Points to Ponder
Please let go of what hurts you. You can be free of the pain.
I know it can be hard to allow yourself to feel. To start, are you willing to talk or write about one feeling?
“O Lord my God, I called to you for help and you healed me.” Ps. 30:2
What do you find are healthy emotional outlets for you?
Turning Points in Eating Disorder Recovery - December, 2010
(To read more about this topic, read my article entitled Turning Points in Eating Disorder Recovery.)
When dealing with an eating disorder, it’s difficult to come to the point of letting go of what has become comfortable. The decision to fight an eating disorder doesn’t come easily, but certain turning points make the difference. Turning points may be in the form of a medical crisis, a meaningful insight, a comment from a loved one or professional – anything that motivates the person to fight. Whether dramatic or not, they aid the sufferer in embarking on the freedom journey.
For me, the turning point that ultimately directed me to freedom was anything but dramatic, but it steered me back in the right direction. I knew my body couldn’t withstand the anorexic life indefinitely, and I couldn’t take the back and forth thinking any longer - from fighting to giving in and on and on. I’d had enough.
Points to Ponder
What turning point(s) have you had?
Make the most of any turning points that occur for you. Write them down so you can remind yourself of them when you need the motivation.
“Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, ‘This is the way, walk in it.’” Isa. 30:21
How have you used your turning point to keep you motivated?
Renewing the Mind in Eating Disorder Recovery - November, 2010
It’s vital for eating disorder sufferers to renew their minds (Rom. 12:2). What does it mean to renew the mind? It means to combat the lies and negative thoughts that bombard those with eating disorders and replace them with the truth and positive thoughts. The lies and negative thoughts are often deeply embedded in the person’s mind and it takes time, prayer and discipline to recognize and replace those thoughts. However, it’s well worth every minute because it brings about significant change.
I wrote verses, inspirational quotes and truthful statements on note cards to help me renew my mind. It really helped me to have something in black and white to go to when I needed to remember the truth the most. As promised in Rom. 12:2, I was transformed. Renewing my mind was a vital part of my eating disorder recovery.
Points to Ponder
Will you list verses and other truthful statements that encourage and inspire you?
“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Rom. 12:2
Will you pay close attention to your thoughts and determine which ones need to stay and which ones need to be replaced?
“We demolish arguments and every pretention that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” II Cor. 10:5
Identifying Triggers in Eating Disorder Recovery - October, 2010
(To read more about this topic, read my article entitled Identifying Triggers in Eating Disorder Recovery. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Dealing with Triggers.)
Eating disorder sufferers typically have foods, situations, or emotions that trigger eating disorder behaviors. Perhaps specific foods trigger a binge, being with certain loved ones brings about restricting behavior or certain feelings drive a person to purge. One must identify these triggers and either avoid them or learn new ways to cope with them. A person can choose not to stock a triggering food item in the cupboard, but can’t necessarily avoid spending time with others who drive the individual to destructive behaviors.
One of my triggers was that the physical emptiness matched the emotional emptiness I felt. My triggers were typically emotional and it was through journaling and prayer that I was able to identify and deal with them.
When you’re driven to behaviors the most, pay close attention to any foods or events that preceded that time.
Points to Ponder
When you’re driven to behaviors the most, pay close attention to any foods or events that preceded that time.
What have you done or what can you do to avoid or deal with what triggers eating disorder behaviors for you?
“…For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do – this I keep on doing. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God – through Jesus Christ our Lord.” Rom. 7:18-19b, 24-25a
What triggers eating disorder behaviors for you?
Describe in writing a time when you successfully avoided or coped with a trigger.
Don’t Keep Freedom Waiting - September, 2010
You try to sort things out
And find someone to blame,
You’re trying to recall
Life before bondage came.
Don’t keep freedom waiting.
It is calling your name.
You’re trying to step out
And see this is no game,
You see what’s held you back,
Now find excuses lame.
Don’t keep freedom waiting.
It is calling your name.
As scary as it is,
You see what you have gained.
You’re stronger than before,
You’ll never be the same.
Don’t keep freedom waiting.
It is calling your name.
By Laurie Glass
Points to Ponder
What holds you back from reaching freedom?
Your freedom awaits you and it’s larger and greater than you can imagine. Never stop dreaming about it and never stop fighting for it.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” Prov. 3:5,6
Freedom calls out your name. It’s the healthy voice that tells you to embrace and nourish the special person you are.
Forgiveness - August, 2010
(To read more about this topic, read my article entitled Forgiveness in Eating Disorder Recovery. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Forgiving Others.)
Those with eating disorders have often been wronged by someone. Whether they’ve been victims of abuse or been mistreated in some other way, getting past these occurrences is very challenging to say the least. However, once they forgive, they become free of the control of these hurts.
As I’ve pondered what forgiveness means, I’ve heard myself saying, “But what that person did wasn’t okay.” Sometimes the person won’t take responsibility for his/her actions and that makes it even more difficult to forgive. On the other hand, what choice do we have? If Christ could forgive me for every sin I’ve ever committed, how dare I withhold forgiveness toward someone else? Furthermore, doesn’t the refusal to forgive only allow the person to continue hurting me? I’ll admit I struggle in this area. I find that as I journal and prayer, however, the Lord often gives me insights that lead me into a forgiving spirit. I believe God can bring good out of even the worst circumstances when we forgive.
Points to Ponder
“Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written; ‘It is mine to avenge, I will repay,’ says the Lord.” Rom. 12:19
You don’t need to allow others’ offenses to continue hurting you. You can forgive and heal from the harm they’ve caused.
What holds you back from forgiving others and how does this hurt you?
Will you take time to focus on God’s forgiveness in your own life?
Eating disorders and perfectionism often go hand in hand. It goes beyond wanting to achieve perfection in our appearance. We expect ourselves to recover perfectly and we’re also likely to be perfectionists in other areas of our lives.
I had to examine my expectations of my appearance. One thing I reminded myself of was that I wasn’t 20 anymore and I shouldn’t expect to have a 20 year old looking body. I also had to let up on my drive for perfection in other ways. I had to remember that not everything had to be in perfect order every day. And I knew I shouldn’t expect anything more of myself than God does. Furthermore, I needed to realize I was a work in progress.
Points to Ponder
In what ways are you a perfectionist?
Cut yourself some slack this week and remember that no one expects you to be perfect.
What drives you to expect perfection from yourself?
“Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” Phil. 1:6
In what ways will you readjust your expectations of yourself?
Causes of Eating Disorders - June, 2010
(To read more about this topic, read my article entitled Common Causes of Eating Disorders.)
There are numerous factors that can cause an eating disorder. Commonly, there are many factors involved. Of course, there is abuse or trauma of any kind. The inability to express emotions, major life changes and losses, and perfectionism can all be factors causing eating disorders. An unhealthy obsession with body image, diet and exercise coupled with other factors make one susceptible to developing an eating disorder. The causes of eating disorders can vary greatly from one person to another, but it is in working through the root causes that leads a person to freedom.
I’d experienced years of undiagnosed health problems, numerous changes in direction, difficult losses and what I call an early mid-life crisis. In addition, I’d been giving and giving to others while receiving very little in return. I was spent on all levels and when I went to others for support, I found none. Add to that, I could no longer hear God’s voice or sense His presence. Looking back, I believe that was an attack of Satan, but I didn’t see it that way at the time. Feeling my circumstances and even my inner self were beyond my control, I began restricting my food intake in an attempt to control something in my life. I’d studied eating disorders so I knew what I was doing and yet I felt powerless to stop it. So there were several factors that intertwined to cause my eating disorder.
Points to Ponder
Have you identified what factors caused your eating disorder?
No matter what has happened, you can turn its effects around.
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” James 1:2-4
Are you working through the factors that caused your eating disorder? If not, what is holding you back?
See Yourself through His Eyes - May, 2010
God made you as you are,
Embrace His gift to you,
Accept the masterpiece
That He has given you.
He made you with His hands,
Try not to criticize,
For He makes no mistakes.
See yourself through His eyes.
You’re lovely and unique
Inside and outside, too,
As you accept yourself,
Your peace will show right through.
Replace your thoughts with His,
He’ll bless the one who tries,
He’ll honor your attempts.
See yourself through His eyes.
Holds freedom in His hands
He longs to grant to you,
Replace the bondage with
A peace and joy so true.
So focus on the truth
To put to death the lies,
Look to the Holy One.
See yourself through His eyes.
By Laurie Glass
Points to Ponder
“And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.” Matt. 10:30
What are the positive things others and/or God say about you? Will you try to believe those things about yourself?
When we’re malnourished, we don’t think as clearly – our perceptions of ourselves are distorted. Hang onto the positive things others have to say about you until you can see it for yourself.
What will you do to combat the lies and negative thoughts you have about yourself? How will you arm yourself with the truth and positive thoughts?
Over the Counter Medications and Eating Disorders - April, 2010
(To read more about this top, read my article entitled Diet Pills, Laxatives and Eating Disorders.)
The use as well as abuse of laxatives, diuretics and diet pills is common among those with eating disorders. However, these easy to obtain, over the counter medications take us nowhere fast. It’s easy to get started, it doesn’t take long to get hooked, but it’s hard to stop taking them. They may seem relatively harmless at first, but they can be addictive substances.
Although I didn’t take laxatives or diuretics, I can understand why others do. That panicky feeling after eating even just a little bit more is tough to handle. I did take diet pills, though, and even become dependent on them. They were making me sick so I knew I had to stop taking them. It wasn’t easy, but it wouldn’t have been easy to keep taking them and suffer the consequences, either. I remember God speaking to me when I got rid of them. Getting rid of the diet pills brought me one step closer to freedom.
Points to Ponder
If you’ve been taking over the counter medications, what steps will you take to get off them?
If you’re considering taking any of these over the counter medications, don’t. I realize that’s easier said than done, but it isn’t easy getting unhooked, either.
“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.” Isa. 40:29
What will you do to resist the temptation to buy over the counter troublemakers?
What Does Eating Disorder Recovery Look Like? - March, 2010
(To read more about this topic, read my article entitled What Does Eating Disorder Recovery Look Like?)
What does it mean to be recovered from an eating disorder? Does everyone define recovery the same? For some, it seems that some concerns remain even though they no longer practice eating disorder behaviors. Some don’t give a thought to what they eat anymore and some continue to use meal plans as a general guideline for healthy eating. Some do well much of the time, but find themselves sucked back in temporarily through during stressful circumstances. Recovery doesn’t have to look the same to everyone.
For me, I realize this is a vulnerable area so I have certain boundaries in place. I don’t know my weight and don’t need to know my weight. When I initially obtained my meal plan, I hoped it would become a healthy way of eating and that’s exactly what happened. I don’t follow it rigidly, but I eat an overall balanced diet based on these guidelines. Yet I don’t hesitate to have occasional treats when the opportunities arise. I try to pray every day thanking God for my freedom and asking His help in maintaining it.
Points to Ponder
What does recovery mean to you as it relates to your eating habits?
What does recovery mean to you as it relates to the emotional aspect of your eating disorder?
“For you, O Lord, have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before the Lord in the land of the living.” Ps. 116:8-9
Discuss what recovery means to you with the professionals and support system that are helping you. This will help you all to be on the same page and will aid you as a team to devise a plan to reach your recovery goals.
Influence of Others in Eating Disorder Recovery - February, 2010
(To read more about this topic, read my article entitled Influence of Others in Eating Disorder Recovery)
While fighting an eating disorder, we’re sensitive to the comments of others. Whether they’re loved ones or professionals, we take to heart what they say. Sometimes, they don’t understand how their comments aren’t as helpful as they think. In addition, it’s such a vulnerable time for us and we tend to misinterpret what is said. The eating disorder voice tends to distort others’ comments.
When someone told me I was really thin, I loved that. When someone told me I looked just right, I felt I must not be thin enough. Either way, I was driven to keep losing weight. My dietitian made unprofessional comments and I could have used her words as an excuse not to do my best to follow the meal plan. As hard as it was, I fought against allowing her comments to set me back. God strengthened me to persevere in my journey in spite of this obstacle.
Points to Ponder
Have you ever used someone’s comment as an excuse to hang onto the eating disorder?
“For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, ‘Do not fear, I will help you.’” Isa. 41:13
Do your best not to let the comments of others feed the eating disorder. It’s what God says to you that matter most.
Will you do your best to examine your interpretation of others’ comments? Sometimes we do misunderstand others.
Don’t Let It Take You Away - January, 2010
Came in and took over
And you’ve become lost,
You wanted it at first,
Now it’s come at a cost.
No longer are the same,
The ed’s in the way,
It’s come to steal, destroy.
Don’t let it take you away.
Ed controls you now,
It’s something you must fight,
Must not give into it,
Resist with all your might.
You’re trying to hang on,
Although it’s hard each day,
You must not give up now.
Don’t let it take you away.
You must renew your mind,
Think only on what’s true,
Leave harmful thoughts behind,
Replace with something new.
Do not give into it,
Hear what it has to say,
It only lies to you.
Don’t let it take you away.
You can get free of this,
Be stronger than before,
Be so much healthier,
Have peace and so much more.
Don’t let it control you,
Too great of price to pay,
Say no to the ed.
Don’t let it take you away.
By Laurie Glass
Points to Ponder
The eating disorder does not deserve to control you. You are worth so much more than what the nasty old eating disorder claims it can give you.
“No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” Rom. 8:37
List all the ways you can to tell the eating disorder, “Hands off, you can’t have any more of me!”
You can have your life back. You can have yourself back and be stronger than before.
Letting Go of Your Eating Disorder - December, 2009
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Letting Go of Your Eating Disorder. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Letting Go of the Eating Disorder.)
For various reasons, an eating disorder becomes comfortable to us. Logically, we know we’re hurting ourselves, but emotionally, we feel the disorder gives us comfort, a sense of control or something we know will be there to hang onto. Why would we want to give up something that gives us all of that? In reality, though, an eating disorder doesn’t give us any of these things.
There was a time you couldn’t have pried anorexia from me. Nor could you have pried me away from anorexia’s grasp. The physical emptiness mirrored the emotional emptiness I felt. In addition, I felt I was in control of something, though it wasn’t very long until I realized that anorexia was, in fact, controlling me. While it was difficult to come to the point of letting go, I’ve certainly never regretted it. Freedom has given me so much more than anorexia ever could have.
Points to Ponder
Do you have a hard time letting go of your eating disorder? If so, why?
Let go of the eating disorder and, in time and with prayer, it will let go of you.
Will you consider letting go of even one small aspect of the eating disorder?
“I pray out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being.” Eph. 3:16
Spiritual Warfare - November, 2009
Spiritual warfare is often an important component with an eating disorder. Satan loves to fill people’s mind with lies and defeating thoughts and specializes in convincing them that these negative musings are their own. He also loves keeping people in bondage to destructive behaviors.
Although I didn’t see it initially, I believe Satan blocked me from hearing God’s voice and that was one of the factors in the onset of anorexia for me. Of course, he also played a role through my remaining anorexic days. I personally value the teachings of Neil Anderson on the topic of spiritual warfare.
Points to Ponder
I’m convinced that spiritual warfare plays a strong role in eating disorders. Don’t be deceived.
“Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.” I Pet. 5:8-9
If you are not yet familiar with spiritual warfare, will you commit to learning about this vital topic?
“But the Lord is faithful and he will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one.” II Thess. 2:3
Clothes Shopping and Eating Disorder Recovery - October, 2009
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Clothes Shopping and Eating Disorder Recovery.)
For the person with an eating disorder, clothes shopping can be a stressful experience. This is especially true when weight gain has occurred. Having to buy larger sizes of clothing is almost like admitting defeat. Those with eating disorders often have a sense of success when they lose weight. Therefore, gaining weight may bring on a sense of failure. Of course, these thoughts are distorted, but they’re all part of having an eating disorder.
One thing I’ve learned over the years is that a person can’t pay much attention to clothing sizes. They vary so much from brand to brand. Just like the number on the scale, the number on the tag has to be put into perspective. There’s no number out there that should define us. As we work through body image issues and focus on the One who created us, we can be free of the numbers that control us.
Points to Ponder
Will you focus on clothing for its comfort and practical use instead of on its size?
It isn’t worth sacrificing your health to fit into a smaller size. Be kind to your body.
“…for in the image of God has God made man.” Gen. 9:6
Examine the underlying issues that make you uncomfortable with weight gain.
Perseverance in Eating Disorder Recovery - September, 2009
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Perseverance in Eating Disorder Recovery. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Perseverance.)
Fighting an eating disorder is one of the toughest battles many of us will face. It takes time, patience, commitment, and perseverance to win. There are times it seems so much easier to give up than to continue the fight. However, doing so won’t bring us to freedom.
I frankly allowed the eating disorder to take over much of the time. There were other times I was simply ambivalent. Of course, neither course brought me closer to freedom. When I decided to fight one more time, I was more determined than ever to leave the eating disorder behind. I knew it would be hard work and it was. I often felt I was barely hanging on, but I absolutely refused to give up. I remember clinging to the promise in Phil. 4:13 that the Lord would strengthen me. It was only through Him that I was able to persevere and win over anorexia.
Points to Ponder
What tempts you to give up the fight?
What inspires you to persevere?
When you feel you can’t keep going, hang on for one more minute, then another, then another.
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.” Heb. 12:1-4
When Help For an Eating Disorder Isn’t Helpful - August, 2009
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled When Help For an Eating Disorder Isn't Helpful.)
Eating disorders are too complicated to fight alone. Ideally, sufferers are told to have a treatment team including a doctor, counselor and a dietitian. In addition to seeing these professionals, inpatient, day programs and support groups are also recommended. It only makes sense to get as much help and support possible.
We are each unique individuals and it’s important that we click with those who are helping us. Granted, this is a complicated process so there are sure to be bumps in the road and uncomfortable moments with anyone we see. However, it sometimes goes beyond that and we need to remember that it’s okay to switch to a different professional if things aren’t working out in our best interest. No professional can be expected to be ideal for every personality type and we can’t be expected to continue seeing those who aren’t actually helping us. This doesn’t even mean that those we see have to specialize in eating disorders. There are many able and qualified professionals who can be very effective who don’t specialize in this field.
I personally had a bad experience with a dietitian. She made very unprofessional comments and clearly didn’t know the first thing about treating anorexic clients. I could have easily used this experience to give up the fight. It certainly wasn’t easy to deal with the experience on top of everything else. However, I knew I couldn’t allow her unprofessionalism to prevent me from getting better so I made the meal plan work for me.
Points to Ponder
Are you willing to make a switch if things aren’t working out with who you’re currently seeing?
Your health and your life is at stake. Don’t let anything or anyone stand in the way of your recovery.
“We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.” II Cor. 4:8
Have you allowed the comments of professionals to set you back? If so, how can you turn that around?
Suicidal Thoughts - July, 2009
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Eating Disorders and Suicidal Thoughts.)
The depression and desperation eating disorder sufferers sometimes feel can lead them to having suicidal thoughts. In fact, they may even engage in eating disorder behaviors as a slow form of suicide. This, of course, is a very sensitive and complicated issue.
I was suicidal myself. I have much to be thankful for that I never followed through with making an attempt. The one thing that held me back was that I couldn’t do this to my parents. I believe God kept one place in my heart filled with that thought to prevent me from making the worst mistake ever.
Points to Ponder
If you’re feeling suicidal, PLEASE reach out for help somewhere. Call an emergency hotline or someone. Your life is from God, it is precious and it shouldn’t be wasted.
If you’re feeling suicidal, will you reach out for help and support?
“Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time need.” Heb. 4:16
Will you promise your counselor or someone that you won’t do anything to hurt yourself?
Sobering Moments - June, 2009
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Sobering Moments in Eating Disorder Recovery.)
While battling an eating disorder, there are certain sobering moments that occur on the journey to freedom. I’m sure you know what I mean. These are the times that the reality of what you’re doing to your body hits you right between the eyes. These occurrences shock you out of denial. This may come in the form of a comment made by a professional or a loved one, one of your own insights, or something God says to you.
I’ll share one of those moments from my own journey. A teenage gal who admitted to me that she was restricting her food intake once said to me, “I wish I was as skinny as you are.” I thought to myself, “No, you don’t. You don’t want to go through what I go through.” Since my family and friends didn’t know I had an eating disorder at the time, this really hit me because it meant someone actually noticed how thin I’d become. In addition, I didn’t want to be a negative influence on this gal. Thankfully, it wasn’t long before she told me she was eating more, and I certainly hope that now in her adult years she isn’t struggling with restriction.
Points to Ponder
What are some of your sobering moments? What have you learned from them?
Do you find yourself struggling with denial? If so, what can you do to change that?
“…For the Lord comforts his people and will have compassion on his afflicted ones.” Isa. 49:13b
Make the most of your sobering moments. Write them down so you can look back at them when you need them most.
My Promises to You - May, 2009
Though trials come and grip your heart,
Don’t worry what to do,
My loving guidance I’ll impart,
I’ve blazed a trial for you.
When walking in the desert sand,
The water I’ll supply.
When life you do not understand,
I will not leave you dry.
When artic wind begins to blow,
Heart freezes up with fear,
I’ll walk with you through chilling snow,
You’ll feel my warmth so near.
When wading through the streams of doubt,
The water rises up,
My leading you won’t be without,
Just know that I’m enough.
Although the waves come crashing in,
The water makes you sway,
Don’t fear them rising up again,
They won’t sweep you away.
When fiery blaze invades your soul,
Heart burns with searing pain,
Have faith that I am in control,
My healing touch will reign.
Afraid of flames engulfing you,
Recall what you have learned,
And recollect my promise true,
That you will not be burned.
Though trials come and grip your heart,
Don’t worry what to do,
My loving guidance I’ll impart,
Just let me walk with you.
By Laurie Glass
Points to Ponder
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.” Isa. 43:2-3a
No matter how overwhelming things are or how bleak your situation is, you really can get through this.
Will you try to exercise your faith this week and trust that one day things will look brighter?
Think of a difficult time in the past and celebrate that you got through it. Let that strengthen you to face what is going on in the present.
Scale - April, 2009
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Eating Disorders and the Scale. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Letting Go of the Number on the Scale.)
The obsession with weight is a difficult issue to tackle while fighting an eating disorder. The number on the scale dictates how much or little we eat and how we feel about ourselves. Nothing deserves that kind of control over us. So why do we let it? Weighing ourselves obsessively provides a distraction from what is really troubling us deep inside. Still, it takes time to work through underlying issues. Meanwhile, though, it’s as if that seemingly innocent number seeks to instill fear, control and even destroy us.
I’d never heard of throwing scales away and the like. However, I knew that whether I gained or lost, I was driven to restrict and take diet pills. Realizing I couldn’t handle knowing my weight, I stopped weighing myself. To this day, I haven’t weighed myself, and I get on the scale backwards at medical appointments. I don’t need to know that number, and I consider this a healthy boundary for someone who has struggled with this in the past.
Points to Ponder
You are of far greater value to everyone and to God than a mere number.
Will you consider weighing yourself less often?
Don’t let the number dictate what you do or how you feel about yourself.
“…let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God.” II Cor. 7:1b
Whose Call Will You Answer? - March, 2009
The ed stands on one side of you and freedom stands on the other. Both are calling your name hoping to receive your full attention. Each is doing its best to entice you, to draw you to itself.
As the ed calls to you, it lies to you, deceives you and chips away at the very core of your soul. This enemy intertwines its messages with messages of those who have criticized or degraded you, including yourself. This troublemaker hides itself so well, it’s difficult to see the danger to which it’s leading you.
As freedom calls your name, it tells you who you truly are and points out the beauty and talents that make you unique. It tells you of a new life that can be yours. Yet it’s all so new to you, you aren’t sure how authentic this voice really is.
You are in the middle as they each call out your name louder and louder. Whose call will you answer?
By Laurie Glass
Points to Ponder
No matter how loudly the eating disorder voice shouts at you, remember that it will never deliver on its promises.
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us…” Eph. 3:20
Listen as closely as you can to the healthy voice. As you practice listening to it, those life giving words will get louder and louder until they drown out the eating disorder voice.
In this moment, answer the voice that will give you life, health and peace.
Pleasing Others - February, 2009
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Pleasing Others.)
It’s common for eating disorder sufferers to be people pleasers. They desire the acceptance and approval of others. In addition, they often tend to want to help others and make sure everyone is happy. Sometimes they’re afraid of others. Also, sometimes unrealistic expectations are imposed on them by others and they strive to live up to those expectations. Meanwhile, they let their own needs go unmet.
I used to take responsibility not only for myself, but for others. I learned, however, that’s just as wrong as not taking personal responsibility. The same applies to making others happy. Their happiness is not our responsibility. Furthermore, I shouldn’t expect more than God even expects of me, and He doesn’t expect me to make everyone happy all of the time.
Points to Ponder
As situations arise, will you make a mental note that you are responsible only for yourself and not for others?
Will you list some of the things God expects of you and compare them with your own expectations and the expectations of others?
“The Lord is the light and my salvation - whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid?” Ps. 27:1
Focus on what God expects of you and how He sees you – not on what others think. I know it isn’t easy, but I also know that it’s freeing.
Depression - January, 2009
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Depression and Eating Disorders.)
Depression and eating disorders often go hand in hand. The issues that led to the eating disorder may be the culprit. Antidepressants are often helpful in alleviating the depression to give the individual time and energy to work through the issues that caused it. Finding the right medication, dosage or combination of medications may take time, however.
I suffered from depression myself while I was anorexic. Under my doctor’s supervision, I chose to take an herb that helped lift my mood a bit. I didn’t see it as the answer in and of itself, but as an aid to help me gain the emotional energy needed to work through the thoughts and feelings that were so deeply troubling to me. Fortunately, it was effective and over time, a lot of time, I rose up out of the depression.
Points to Ponder
If you’re depressed, explore your treatment options. Why suffer if you don’t have to?
I know that sometimes it seems so dark the light will never shine again. Allow others to hold up the light for you when you can’t see it for yourself. And let the light of God’s love fill your heart.
Do you have a healthy outlet for your feelings?
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Ps. 34:18
Support Groups - December, 2008
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Eating Disorder Support Groups.)
Support groups often provide needed support for those with eating disorders. There’s value in knowing others are struggling with similar, if not the same, issues. A support group, therefore, offers a safe place to talk as well as feel understood. There are even online support groups and supportive message boards. While it isn’t the same as meeting with others face to face, not everyone has support groups available where they live. Furthermore, with message boards, the opportunity to connect with other eating disorder sufferers is available 24/7.
There weren’t any support groups available in my area. I desperately craved support, but I wasn’t familiar with online support until I was nearly past my eating disorder so I missed what these groups have to offer. With my experience on message boards, I’ve seen how much it means to others to have this option.
Points to Ponder
Will you search for an appropriate support group in your area? If there are none available, will you search online?
Give yourself the gift of the best support system available to you.
“Praise be to God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.” II Cor. 1:3-5
Is there something holding you back from seeking support? If so, what? How can you overcome it?
You Are Worth Fighting For - November, 2008
No matter what you think
When fighting inner war,
That battle in your mind,
You are worth fighting for.
God made you as you are,
He loves you very much,
He longs to work in you
And give His healing touch.
Although it’s very deep,
You feel it at the core,
And you don’t like yourself,
You are worth fighting for.
A path will lead you to
The place you need to be,
And you may walk in it
So you can be set free.
To others and to God,
You’re valued so much more
Than you could ever know,
You are worth fighting for.
So much inside of you,
You have so much to give,
From all you have been through
In ed life you live.
God longs to set you free,
So much He has in store,
Rich blessings just for you,
You are worth fighting for.
By Laurie Glass
Points to Ponder
What would you tell someone who is struggling to find the motivation to fight an ed? Will you say the same thing to yourself?
Make a list of your positive personality traits.
No matter how you feel, the truth is that you matter in this world. You are worth whatever it takes to break free from what is holding you.
“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.” Ps. 32:8
Body Image - October, 2008
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Body Image and Eating Disorders. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Dealing with Body Image Issues.)
A significant factor in the battle against an eating disorder is body image. It seems that few people are content with their basic shape. Like so many other factors in eating disorders, even our focus on body image can be a symptom of something deeper. We need to examine our thoughts and feelings to see what is contributing to our struggle with accepting our appearance.
I remember writing on note cards certain verses about God creating each of us and how we’re to serve Him with our bodies since we house the Holy Spirit. In addition, I wrote other truthful statements about my appearance on note cards and taped them around my full-length mirror. These verses and statements helped me to counteract the thoughts of discontent I had about with my body image.
Points to Ponder
What are your specific struggles with body image? Have you examined what may be underneath this issue?
“This is what the Lord says – he who made you, who formed you in the womb, and who will help you…” Isa. 44:2
Have you talked through your body image issues with anyone? Have you talked to God about them?
Do your best to accept the beautiful creation who is you.
Steps - September, 2008
(To read more about this topic, see the article I published at Associated Content - Taking the Steps.)
Steps are what you take to make the journey from bondage to freedom. Some steps are made toward freedom and same back toward bondage. The pattern of footprints you leave behind may be deep or shallow, they may follow a straight line, may change directions or at times may even go in circles. The steps that are shallow, that go backwards or seemingly lead nowhere are still not futile. These shallow, misdirected footprints can provide a learning ground – a place where you see a little deeper into yourself, sense God’s leading you in a new way or learn a valuable lesson from a mistake you’ve made. The footprints that point toward freedom represent healthy choices, perseverance, strength and hope. The deepest footprints are the most deliberate, determined and lasting. These beautiful footprints led to a freeing up of your spirit, a hope, peace and joy that go deeper than could have ever been possible if not for the steps.
Points to Ponder
What steps forward have you taken in your recovery journey?
What have you learned from the steps (whether forward or backward) you’ve taken in your recovery journey?
“I can do everything through him who gives me strength.” Phil. 4:13
Break down your long-term goals into smaller, more manageable steps. Ask yourself what you can do today that will steer you in the right direction toward your long-term goals.
Telling Others - August, 2008
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Telling Others about Your Eating Disorder. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Telling Others.)
Whether or not to tell others is a heart-rending decision each eating disorder sufferer needs to make. While sharing this struggle with friends, family members, or even co-workers can result in receiving needed support, doing so can also result in misunderstanding and heartache during a very vulnerable time. The matter of telling others deserves great care. Who to tell, when to tell and how to tell are all factors that need consideration.
I didn’t tell family members or friends about my anorexia while I was struggling, but waited until a few years later. I’ve never regretted that decision. However, many people benefit greatly from opening up to and receiving needed support from others.
Please give careful thought to this matter. Telling others will likely serve you well, but exercise caution so you don’t end up hurting even more. If that happens, take comfort in God’s love and healing touch.
Points to Ponder
Will you consider, with caution, telling a trusted friend or family member so you may receive their support?
If you have a counselor, perhaps you can bring a loved one with you to an appointment and tell him/her there.
“The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” Ps. 18:2
If telling others didn’t go as you expected, don’t let that prevent you from getting needed help and support. You can still break free of your eating disorder regardless of what those close to you think or say.
Control and Eating Disorders - July, 2008
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Control and Eating Disorders. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Letting Go of Control.)
One of the most common factors among eating disorder sufferers is the desire for control. For many reasons, we may feel our lives are beyond what we can manage. Perhaps we’ve faced losses, disappointments, accidents or changes of direction due to circumstances beyond our control.
As we limit our food intake, we feel we are in charge of at least one thing in our lives when other decisions seem to be made without our consent or input. However, it doesn’t take very long to realize that this behavior is instead controlling us. We find we’re afraid of food, apprehensive about eating with others, discontent with our body image and obsessed with our weight. Put that way, it doesn’t sound like we’re in control, does it?
For me, I reasoned I would eat less temporarily to help me get through a difficult time. I’d experiences losses, changes in direction and unexplained health problems. It seemed I wasn’t getting a say in anything in my life at the time. I attempted to reach out for support and found none. Anorexia welcomed me with open arms as it sought to control my life. Before long, I realized it had me in its grasp and was not going to let go easily. In order to loose myself of its tight grip, I put the control of my journey to freedom in God’s loving, able and trustworthy hands.
Points to Ponder
Remember, you aren’t controlling anything by practicing self-destructive behaviors. Instead the eating disorder is controlling you and it doesn’t deserve to do that.
“Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.” Ps. 25:5
Have you believed that food-related behaviors place you in control of something in your life? Do you now see that isn’t true?
I encourage you to allow the Lord to lead your freedom journey.
Eating Disorder - Friend or Foe? - June, 2008
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Your Eating Disorder - Friend or Foe?)
Eating disorder sufferers commonly see the eating disorder as a friend. When everything else feels out of control, it’s always there and provides a distraction from painful underlying issues. However, this friend takes away far more than it gives and once the person sees that, then true recovery can begin.
I saw anorexia as my friend and I felt committed to it. It was as if eating more was betraying this constant companion. However, when I took a closer look at how it controlled me and made me think very little of myself, I realized it wasn’t my friend. That heart realization made me truly want to leave it behind and turn to my true Best Friend.
Points to Ponder
Try to see the eating disorder for the foe it really is. The sense of control and comfort is false and you don’t deserve to be held by this foe any longer.
“I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.” John 15:15
In what ways do you see your eating disorder as a friend?
In what ways do you see your eating disorder as a foe?
Scripture in Eating Disorder Recovery - May, 2008
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Verses for Eating Disorder Recovery. I have also published articles on applying the Bible to eating disorder recovery at Associated Content - Resisting Behaviors, Finding Strength, Renewing the Mind.)
Looking to scripture is a vital part of eating disorder recovery. The truth found in God’s Word truly does set one free. Whether an eating disorder sufferer is looking to scripture for strength, hope, love, acceptance, peace, forgiveness, or grace, it’s all right there.
There were two particular scriptures that meant a great deal to me when I battled my own eating disorder. One was Rom. 12:2, “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will.” I took this scripture literally and wrote verses, quotes, and truthful statements on note cards to help me renew my mind. This was very effective for me in finding my freedom. The other scripture was Phil. 4:13, “I can do all things through him who gives me strength.” (NIV) I knew I couldn’t break free of my eating disorder on my own so I grasped onto this promise.
Points to Ponder
“If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.” James 1:5
Will you search the Bible and choose some verses for meditation and or memorization?
“The Lord helps them and delivers them; He delivers them from the wicked and saves them, because they take refuge in him.” Ps. 37:40
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.” Matt. 7:7,8
Meal Plans - April, 2008
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Meal Plans in Eating Disorder Recovery. I have also published articles on this topic at Associated Content - Benefits of Having a Meal Plan, Obtaining a Meal Plan, Following a Meal Plan.)
Meal plans are often helpful in treating eating disorders. Some of these plans are general in nature and some are quite detailed. Regardless, they help an eating disorder sufferer to eat a healthy, balanced diet. Whether the person has been restricting, bingeing, or bingeing and purging, it becomes difficult to discern appropriate amounts of food to eat in a given day.
I wasn’t one to count calories so I made a point to tell my dietitian I didn’t want to be educated about calories. I knew I would obsess over that knowledge and fighting anorexia was already difficult enough. She, therefore, educated me about serving sizes and gave me a meal plan that mapped out how many servings of the various food groups to eat each day. My intent when I received the meal plan was not to simply follow it temporarily, but that it would become a healthy way of eating for me. That’s exactly what happened. Although I don’t focus on it the same now, it still serves as a general guideline and overall has become a healthy habit for me.
My dietitian didn’t know how to relate to those with eating disorders. However, many dietitians are helpful in talking through food-related issues. They will meet with a person on a regular basis to educate, encourage and hold a person accountable.
I encourage you to try a meal plan. For some, it isn’t as helpful as for others so don’t feel badly if it doesn’t work for you. It may seem scary at first, however, I think you owe it to yourself to give it your best try.
Points to Ponder
Will you try to locate a dietitian and obtain a meal plan?
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isa. 41:10
Do you have difficulty following your meal plan? If so, why?
Have you ever written in a journal how you feel about food or what emotions keep you trapped in food-related behaviors?
Never Give Up On Freedom - March, 2008
What is the vice that’s holding you,
Some days you feel that it’s your friend,
But other days your enemy,
You want ambivalence to end.
What is it you’re in bondage to,
Just what enslavement comes to mind,
You’re longing to be free of chains,
But it stays with you all the time.
You’ve prayed and prayed the issue through,
And you have tried to let it go,
But how to leave constraint behind
Is something you do not yet know.
You’ve had your times of giving up
But got back up and tried again,
You’re weary from the battling,
Just want the struggling to end.
Your efforts may seem futile, trite
And you may wonder why you try,
You question if you’ll ever have
The strength to cut confinement’s tie.
But each step counts for something, though
Yes, even ones that may go back,
They may provide a learning ground
And help you to get back on track.
Though some steps may be baby ones,
Still, large steps you may also take,
Must celebrate them, ev’ry one,
For each will such a diff’rence make.
You do not dare to give up now,
You may be hanging on the brink,
Sweet freedom right within your grasp,
You may be closer than you think.
So don’t give up on freedom now,
Not even when it seems so far.
Although the road seem long and steep,
You never know how close you are.
By Laurie Glass
Points to Ponder
If you are able to draw breath, there is hope of freedom. As long as you are alive, you can work toward recovery.
If you’re visiting this site, you likely already know that the eating disorder life isn’t what you want in the years to come. If you give up on freedom, what is your alternative? It can’t compare to freedom.
“Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.” Ps. 143:10
You never know how close you are to freedom so you do not dare to give up now.
Comparison - February, 2008
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Comparison and Eating Disorders. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Stopping Comparison.)
It’s easy for eating disorder sufferers to get caught up in comparison. Seeing someone thinner often triggers eating disorder behaviors. Seeing someone with a body type the person prefers can trigger eating disorder behaviors as well. In addition to comparing their bodies, they may also compare their food intake, exercise habits, abilities, or even personality traits.
With my distorted anorexic thoughts, I couldn’t stand it when I saw someone thinner than me. I had to focus on what was a healthy size for me was rather than compare myself to others. Now when I saw someone thinner than me, I ask God to help that person get needed help if she has an eating disorder. Of course, I realize that not every thin person has an eating disorder and I also realize a person can have an eating disorder and not be thin, but my point is that I began praying instead of comparing. In the end, our focus needs to be on how God made us and on drawing closer to Him. As we do that, we won’t feel the same draw to compare.
Points to Ponder
When you find yourself comparing your body to someone else’s, what can you do to redirect your thinking?
The only person you need to be like is you.
“Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.” Luke 12:7
God made you just as you are for a reason. Do your best not to compare yourself with others and cheat yourself of who He wants you to be.
Guilt and Shame - January, 2008
(To read more about these topics, see my articles entitled Guilt and Eating Disorders and Shame and Eating Disorders. I have also published articles on these topics at Associated Content - Letting Go of Guilt and Letting Go of Shame.)
Guilt and shame are significant factors among those who suffer with eating disorders. We feel guilty about depriving ourselves of nutrition, purging, or overeating. The resulting regret and remorse over what we’ve done brings us down even more.
For me, the guilt and shame occurred because I was an adult when the anorexia began, I already had health problems, and I’d studied eating disorders so I knew exactly what I was doing. It was only through prayer and receiving God’s love and assurance that I was able to let go of the guilt and shame and move forward in my journey. If not for prayer, I don’t think I would have ever been able to let go of those debilitating feelings.
Points to Ponder
Have you noticed that guilt and shame only serve to feed the eating disorder?
“Guard my life and rescue me; let me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you. May integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope is in you.” Ps. 25:20,21
Have you tried to leave your guilt and shame with the Lord?
“…The Lord is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all he has made. The Lord upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.” Ps. 145:13b-14
You don’t have to feel guilty or ashamed for having an eating disorder. Remind yourself of that every day.
Getting Help for Eating Disorders - December, 2007
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Eating Disorders - Getting Help. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Getting Help.)
Those of us with eating disorders often enjoy helping others, but have difficulty receiving help. We find it nearly impossible to speak up and ask for help. However, I’m convinced that eating disorders are too complicated to fight alone. Furthermore, I believe that asking for help is not a sign of weakness, but a sign of health.
There are so many types of treatment available. Whether it’s inpatient, partial hospitalization, or a day program or a support group – whether it means seeing a counselor, pastor, dietitian, and/or a medical doctor, there is help available. While financial concerns are valid, a person’s health and life reach far beyond a dollar amount. Furthermore, sometimes sliding scales and payment plans are available.
Points to Ponder
Do you find it difficult to seek help? If so, why?
Don’t cheat yourself of the help you need, and make the most of the aid that is available to you. It’s okay to receive.
“I will praise the Lord who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.” Ps. 16:7-8
You wouldn’t deny someone else of needed help and support. Don’t deny yourself of what YOU need.
Prayer and Eating Disorders - November, 2007
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Prayer and Eating Disorders. I have also published two articles on this topic at Associated Content - The Role of Prayer in Eating Disorder Recovery and Scriptural Prayers for Those with Eating Disorders.)
For many with eating disorders, prayer is a vital part of breaking free. Who else is available to talk to 24/7? Who else is patient enough to listen to the same things repeatedly? Who else sees inside our hearts and understands us better than our Creator?
I know without a doubt that I wouldn’t be free of anorexia today outside of prayer. Praying caused me to put my concerns, fears, and inner pain into words. Even that was freeing for me, but knowing there was someone there to listen and to love me was tremendous. Add to that, by praying I allowed the Lord to work in my heart and mind and that’s where the power was. I can’t imagine my journey without prayer.
See the "Your Spirit" page for the Serenity Prayer and an Eating Disorder Prayer.
Points to Ponder
It doesn’t matter what you say or how you say it, just pray from your heart.
“Pray continually.” I Thess. 5:17
Does anything hold you back from asking the Lord for His help?
“Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.” Jer. 29:12
Journaling and Eating Disorder Recovery - October, 2007
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Journaling and Eating Disorders. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - The Benefits of Journaling.)
Eating disorder sufferers can benefit greatly from journaling – it’s a great avenue for self-expression. Getting thoughts and feelings in writing helps us to release them and heal from the pain they hold.
I honestly don’t think I would have survived without my journal. I wrote whatever I felt and whatever was on my mind. And if once wasn’t enough, I penned those thoughts and feelings again. This was a very informal yet vital way for me to sort through my confusing and distorted thoughts as well as purge myself of devastating inner pain. As I wrote about what was troubling me, I would gain insights as to why and what to do about it. In addition, getting my thoughts and feelings on paper also seemed to expose my inner pain to God’s healing touch. I don’t know if I’d believe that can happen other than through my experience, but I found it to be true.
Points to Ponder
What holds you back from journaling? What is scary to you about writing out your thoughts and feelings?
Remember, there are no rules for journaling – simply write whatever you think and feel.
“Therefore I will not keep silent; I will speak out in the anguish of my spirit, I will complain in the bitterness of my soul.” Job 7:11
Will you attempt to write your thoughts and feelings in a journal?
Relapses and Eating Disorder Recovery - September, 2007
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Relapses and Eating Disorder Recovery. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Dealing with Relapses.)
There is no such thing as a perfect recovery experience. Many factors lead to eating disorders and it takes time to address them all. Furthermore, the resolve to recover sometimes wanes. Breaking free of an eating disorder is so difficult and the pull to engage in behaviors is so strong, it’s no surprise that sufferers are often ambivalent and, therefore, experience relapses.
I clung to anorexia much of the time. The times when I decided to fight often didn’t last for long. With that bit of doubt about whether I wanted to give it up as well as knowing the hard work required to break free, I went back and forth countless times. However, I continued addressing underlying issues and in the end, that served me well. When I decided to fight again, there wasn’t as much left to tackle. In addition, by that point, I was truly committed to leaving the eating disorder behind.
Points to Ponder
Have you identified what triggers relapses for you? If so, what can you do to prevent it from happening again?
If you feel ambivalent towards recovery, why is that?
“But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.” I Cor. 10:13
What have you learned from the backward steps you’ve taken?
When Others Don’t Understand - August, 2007
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Loved Ones and Eating Disorders.)
Eating disorder sufferers are typically misunderstood. To others, it doesn’t make sense to engage in these food-related behaviors. They aren’t always polite about their opinions, either, and this can deeply hurt those who feel powerless to stop their perplexing behaviors.
Prior to my anorexic days, I couldn’t imagine depriving myself of food. I didn’t think I would have the willpower to do so. Even though I’d studied eating disorders, I don’t recall reading information that truly explained them well. Of course, having gone through anorexia, I understand it isn’t a matter of willpower. Now I can relate to what drives a person to such behaviors. I also understand that there are many people out there who experience many similar thoughts and feelings to those with eating disorders, but they engage in other behaviors instead. We aren’t as different from each other as we think, but when we judge by what we see on the outside, we don’t realize that. The best we can do is to educate as many people as we can about the true nature of eating disorders.
You may have received some of those impolite, judgmental comments by those who haven’t taken the time to understand you. I encourage you to educate others if you can and to take your hurts to the Lord. He can heal you so these comments won’t feed the eating disorder as we know things like this can. Take comfort in knowing He knows you better than anyone.
Points to Ponder
Will you try to educate others about the true nature of eating disorders?
Even when others haven’t done their best, will you do your best to understand them and not take personally the unfair comments they’ve made?
“My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.” Ps. 62:1,2
Remember, when others don’t “get it,” those in your support group or message board will understand how you feel.
Fear and Eating Disorders - July, 2007
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Fear and Eating Disorders. I have also published an article at on this topic at Associated Content - Letting Go of Fear.)
Fear is a common factor among those who suffer with eating disorders. We may be afraid of food, weight gain or losing control of our eating. We may fear potential damage to our bodies, exposure of our eating disorder, or that we will never break free of these self-destructive behaviors.
It would bewilder others to think of how anyone could find food frightening. That’s understandable and yet it’s very real to us. Like so many of the components of eating disorders, this is a sign of something deeper. In reality, we may fear things like what the future will hold, how we’ll manage financially or how we’ll be able to handle relationships.
I’ve heard that the opposite of fear is faith and I personally learned what that meant. I noticed, as I trusted the Lord to lead my freedom journey and worked through underlying issues, that my fear slowly dissipated. I was no longer terrified as I looked at the food on my plate; I no longer panicked after eating a little bit more than usual; I no longed feared losing complete control of my eating and my weight. The Lord was worthy of my trust and led me into a healthy state of mind and healthy behaviors.
Points to Ponder
When you look underneath the food-related behaviors, what is it that you really fear? Are you willing to trust the Lord with your journey?
“I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.” Ps. 34:4
What fear have you successfully faced and overcome? Let that experience strengthen you to face remaining fears.
The steps to break free of an eating disorder are often scary. However, these steps will lead you to freedom and that’s a place that isn’t one bit scary.
Admitting an Eating Disorder - June, 2007
(To read more about this topic, see my article entitled Break Out of Denial. I have also published an article on this topic at Associated Content - Admitting an Eating Disorder.)
When we begin engaging in eating disorder behaviors, we often don’t even realize that’s what we’re doing. Even if we are aware, we may reason it isn’t serious or that we won’t do it for very long. Besides, there’s a stigma with eating disorders so why would we want to admit to something like that? With any type of struggle, however, how can we ever break free if we don’t first admit there’s a problem? We can’t.
When I began restricting my food intake, I didn’t imagine it would become a problem. Although I’d studied eating disorders and I knew I was doing this in an attempt to gain some type of control in my life, I reasoned I would do it temporarily to help me through a difficult time. Still, while I remained in denial, I wasn’t doing anything to stop this destructive behavior. One day while talking with my doctor about it, I said, “It’s no big deal.” He adamantly replied, “You’re dangerously thin, you’re not eating, and you’re taking diet pills every day. This is a problem.” I’ve never forgotten those words. God used those words to shock me out of denial and help me to admit that I did indeed have an eating disorder.
Points to Ponder
You don’t have to feel ashamed. Eating disorders are complicated, they’re powerful and they get a tight hold on millions of us every year. You are not alone.
Do you have a difficult time admitting your thoughts and behaviors are indicative of an eating disorder? If so, why?
“The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you." Ps. 9:9-10
Please take the first step and admit you have an eating disorder. Don’t cheat yourself - there’s a much better life waiting for you, but you’ll never find it if you don’t take the first step.
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